Sometimes in life strange things happen and you can not actually do anything about it. There are times when everything appears to be normal and then suddenly you realize that things are not the same anymore as they used to be. You feel confused and interrogate yourself and try to pacify yourself by saying that you are simply being paranoid and your fears are baseless. You blame it on your emotional hyperactivity because as a woman your hormones take a toll on you most of your time and life. You justify your acts and dismiss your feelings as baseless fears. But then you keep meeting with those events in life which re-establishes your fear.
I am at a stage right now where something does not feel right. I have this very bad and strong vibe about something going terribly wrong and all I can do is wish that my fears are baseless.
Is it normal at this point in time, I don’t know but who ever knows about it also is of the opinion that things don’t look so normal as they should have been.
You feel hurt the most when the person closest to you hurt you and you can’t do anything about it. You sulk, you brood and try to re-think why did this happen. No amount of apology works then. You decide to keep a check so that you are relived but then you realize that all roads are blocked and there’s no way you can keep a check but to trust when your trust is shaken.